20110425

From A to B

Because I will forget it, I will not think about it, when I reread these posts, I won't remember what was before and where I was afterwards. Because this is where I left off and this is where I am now, directly after coming back.

20110423

Day fourteen

When I left Bangor my heart was beating fast, much too fast for someone so arbitrary, pointed out by a friend who looks through different eyes. Now I'm on the brink of going back to Bangor and my heart is still beating much too fast. Only I find the reason of this up-beat is not so arbitrary anymore. I shrug my shoulders - this journey took me home. Though I still don't know where that might be. My heart is beating for it. Faster than it should.
Don't worry, don't stew - worlds break apart while I'm here, we've trusted the bad guys again - but this is the life. I'm up for it. It will take my breath and tear me down. It has taken my breath already. So I open my arms wide, for this, my love, is ours.
22/4/2011

The last full day in Edinburgh was pretty relaxed. First we put our luggage into lockers, because we moved from one room to another and then Chris, Viljo, Julian and I went to the Writers Museum - which is a quite impressive collection of memorabilia - a bit macabre perhaps but still impressive. Then we set of for the National Museum and popped into the Elephant house on the way for a coffee in the much hyped cafe, where J.K. Rowling is supposed to have drafted the Harry Potter series. The cafe is nice but most of the time crowded with tourists. Though the view of the castle is great. After that we had a look at some pretty scary pre-historic animals, bronze bracelets, really old leather shoes and what else there was on Scottish history.
Back in the hostel we had lunch and moved into our new room, which was quiet small in comparison to all the other rooms on our trip. And because there are so many shops in Edinburgh selling absolutely useless but really pretty stuff, Veera and I ventured to spend some money there. Though we didn't really in the end. But it was fun going there anyway.
At 7 we all met on the Grassmarket for the free Ghost tout, which was fun but not wuite as good as the free city tour. And becaue it was our last evening we decided to have dinner in The Tass on the Royal Mile before entertaining the whole street while stroling up the Royal Mile looking for a pub. When we finally found one that was not too crowded I hardly managed to drink 2 pints of Caledonian before it closed - I'm still amazed that the pubs close so early here - it is unreal! So Unreal!
22/4/2011

Finally on the train to a place that might be called home.
Today we ate a deep fried Mars bar - which is an absolutely genius concept! And I highly recommend it to everybody. We also tried to walk up to Arthur's Seat - but due to the fog we didn't go all the way to the summit. Fog? Yeah, on our last day we had actually a little glimpse of what Scottish weather is supposed to be like. So we really got the feeling of being in Scotland. But now as we're sitting in the train the sun is up and shining again. We've really been blessed. Not only with the weather, but also with the hostels, the traffic, the cars, the people we've met - and with each other.
I have to admit I was a bit afraid that there would be some kind of fight along the way. But there wasn't. Only mocking, fun and good humour. We've made it happen. And now off to Bangor, where the clock ticks on and the end of the semester is approaching fast. It's really unbelievable! I can't imagine that the Erasmus group will break up in a few weeks, that in fact the first people will be leaving in May already. Because most of them I hold dear. Another journey almost completed.
22/4/2011

Day thirteen

How I miss you,
gosh, how I miss you
I can't even tell
I try to stay
try to stay sane
21/4/2011

But I want to tell you. It would be good. We would still be good. Wouldn't we?
21/4/2011

Day twelve

"And there's gold falling from the ceiling of this world,
falling from the heartbeat of this girl [...]
falling from the people that we hurt,
falling from the love we never earned,
falling from the sky that should have burned,
falling from my heart..." - 'And the boys', Angus & Julia Stone

The concert was so much summer - it hurt. It began with Veera and me standing in the queue listening to the people behind us - Erasmus students - a boy from France and a girl from Berlin. I joked that it can't be that hard to find someone from Finland in the queue as well, when the other girl behind us said that she will go back to Finland in May for a job interview - oh irony!
When we finally got in we directly headed for the merch corner, where I bought an EP of the opening act before even hearing him play. He was good though and I'm looking forward to listen to him sime more. The set up between Steve Smyth and Angus & Julia Stone seemed to take forever and at one point I thought that all this - the night bus, the aching feet, the stuffy heat - is too much and the concert probably won't be worth it... But then they finnaly entered the stage and after a few chords it became apparent: totally worth it.
The stage set up, the story telling, the interaction with the audience gave the concert a quite intimate atmosphere. I would've liked to stay forever (and I so want to see them again), but we had a bus to catch and so we made our way to the station smiling from ear to ear. And then finally on the way to Edinburgh; via WiFi online only to post on facebook to let Susi know what greatness I just witnessed. And the rest of the journey spent half-conscious, 'til the phone rang and Vera made it clear that my birthday was somehow not impossible to figure out... What was odd was that this call was held in German and I had been hearing German all day. I heard it in the Glaswegian accent, I heard it in the Spanish in the breakfast room, I heard it in the French on George Square - but it was never there. Maybe I feel homesick for a language I speak on an almost daily basis... how strange!

Once in Edinburgh the next challenge was to find the hostel. A not quite so easy task but in the end Viljo fetched us and brought us there. I was a puddle of tiredness and only wanted to go to bed, but not without telling the others about the concert first and they were in the common room. With a cake. And candles. And sparkling wine. There goes another year unchecked for not celebrating my birthday. It was great of them though. They even managed to find decent cake. Which can be a real drag. the rest is a bit blurry because of the tiredness.

Today Edinburgh. After breakfast we set out for the free city tour which took 3 1/2 hours. We should have done one of these tours in Dublin as well - that would have been better than the hop on- hop off bus tour.
Edinburgh is totally different from Glasgow - older, prettier, more likeable in a way. I am glad we've seen Glasgow though - so we've covered a wider range of what Scotland is like.
After the city tour and lunch I stumbled through some shops with Veera and Tiia and I ended up with three CDs. That leaves me with 6 CDs on this trip. Not a bad result even for me. I think I'll follow these daily reports up with a short review for every Cd when back at home. We'll see.
20/4/2011

Day eleven

Yesterday we found the beautiful part of the city - or let's say the more fascinating part. Older buildings, artsy shops, student clubs - that is in fact how I imagined this city. At night I went out with Veera and Julian to take some pictures of Glasgow by night. We were exploring routes not so much frequented by tourists when we saw it: the O2 abc concert hall. And guess who's playing today? - Angus & Julia Stone! Veera and I will try to get tickets and go to Edinburgh later. It would be so outrageously fabulous if it worked!
19/4/2011

There are still tickets left. For only £12,50!
19/4/2011

So we bought tickets and now we anticipate happily. The weather today is great (sounds familiar, doesn't it?) and we seized the opportunity to walk around in the park near Glasgow University and enjoyed the prettypretty houses in Glasgow West End. Afterward Veera and I dragged Tiia through the Gallery of Modern Art and after lunch at Wetherspoons we got our luggage out of the hostel and waved the others goodbye, because in this very moment they are already on their way to Edinburgh.
Now we wait. On George Square in the sun. 'til it's finallytime to dump our luggage at the bus station and go to the concert.
19/4/2011

Day ten

We are spoilt. Our trip has been a succession of sunny days on the whole only intermitted by very few short showers. Glasgow is no exception from this. I really start to believe that the talk about rainy Britain is a product of sheer exaggeration.
Yesterday we went to see the botanic garden in the People's Palace and the Doulton Fountain, complete with bench hopping, ice cream and cake. While we were at this really exhausting task, Jill and Veera went for a run. Tiia, Viljo, Chris and I just wandered around the city, browsing comic books at shabby flee markets and enjoying the Glaswegian architecture which I absolutely love. After a stroll on the shopping street we had greasy pizza for lunch and then Chris and I went for a nap.
When we were smoking a cigarette after dinner, we were amazed by a HUGE moon, that seemed to be moving really fast - apocalypse seemed a real option and I realized that for the first time in years I have unfinished business. It's a strange feeling. Too strange to last.

When we understood that the world was to live another day, we went out for some gay pubs with Chris and me ending up in Bennet's which had danceable music but was obscurely empty. Britons don't go out on Sunday night it seems.
The Glaswegian accent is terrible! Though people at the club talked to us, we hardly understood anything, because the language was so distorted. So we just smiled and nodded. Which got us through the night somehow.
18/4/2011

Day nine

"Geh, wenn du kannst, wenn du willst - ich will es auch..." - Clickclickdecker

I am sitting on my bed in Glasgow, the sun draws patterns on my feet and my hands are reaching out for Dublin. Or not for Dublin - for Ireland. Or maybe not even that...

The bus to Dublin Airport was our last way together, Laura got off somewhere in the city and after we juggled with the check-in some time, we left Vera in terminal 2 waiting for her flight to London. The flight to Glasgow was astonishingly short and the UK prices on cigarettes led us to believe it might be paradise we're headed to ;). Not so much though. While the hostel is an okay place to stay in, it is the worst on our trip so far: big, anonymous, maybe with something I would call the Glasgow charm.

The city itself still awaits us as we were really exhausted last night and only went for one beer at Wetherspoons.
To venture on without Laura and Vera feels decidedly strange - I always count people and feel there's someone missing...
17/4/2011

Day eight

"What I really wanted to say, love, is that I am happy. Too happy to not seek art as another name-giving process."

Yesterday in the museum of modern art and later walking through the sun I was euphoric. As if I was anticipating a date that I had in the evening, as if everything had in an instant become more meaningful, as if I was changed and the world through me.
When noon came, a word started resounding in my head so loudly, it was difficult to hear anything else. - People are taken by other things, responsibilities, life plans, passions and I have just met what destiny held in store, or I overestimated how much travelling can affect you.
I met destiny. It' this. It's you. It's me in this very moment. And it will pass me by.
16/4/2011

Still Dublin, still like this. Like what? The voice on the other end of the line asks "Oh no, you're not in love again, are you?!", and I smile and shrug and wonder what's wrong with that, but then I shake my head - maybe I'm not. Maybe other people feel like that too. Maybe you can feel as if your chest is bursting with happiness, as if you might have to cry, because you've just seen the sheer beauty of this world, as if time holds its breath for a never ending moment - maybe you can feel like this without it being love. I don't care. I leave the worrying to the voice on the phone. I let the choir in my head sind "straight straight straight" and dance to it. This is the life. You can be your overly concerned self, but don't expect me to be the same. It's absolutely worth it.

I don't have words for it
I shake my hands in joy
and throw my head back

you might have to close your eyes

--


16/4/2011

Day seven

Still Dublin. It's weird in a way that we din't pack our bags every morning to head off to a new city. But it's good as well. Good to sleep at least a bit.
esterday we went for the hop-on hop-off bus tour to get the big picture of what Dublin is like, while freezing our socks off in the topless bus. To warm up again we had lunch in the Temple Bar area, all the time grading the attreactiveness of the passers by. - Let's just say, that despite the fact that the people here seem to be prettier than in Bangor, there's still room for improvement ;).
While the others fell into the abyss of a shopping spree in the afternoon, I tried to get some much needed sleep in the hostel. Without success. But because sleep deprivation takes its toll gradually, the 2 hours rest helped lots anyway.
The shopping of the others was a mission with mixed results as well - while Laura came back with half a wardrobe, Vera and Tiian didn't find anything.

The question for the evening was: To pub crawl or not to pub crawl? While Jill, her friend and Viljo decided to get pissed the cheap way and join the pub crawling group of the hostel, the rest of ust chopped vegetables, paicked over lost keys (which weren't lost), showered, opened wine bottles and beer cans and ultimately had a great dinner. Dinner conversation was surrealistically heavy alternating between sex and death.
Dishes off into the dishwasher and wee off to the gay bar, gay bar! Though finding one proved to be not as easy as expected. Finally we ended up in the Pantybar for one drink, watching and discussingdragqueens before the bar closed. Next stop was the Temple Bar, where we pushed our way through the crowd so we could see the stage. Unfortunately it was too crowded to really dance there, because the live music was really good. The Temple Bar area reminds me of the area around the Thomaskirche in Leipzig - tourists galore and lots of live music. Though they still could learn something about reasonably pricing drinks here...

On the way home we've been intimidated by ne of the more drunk women, who in the end threatened to slap Laura. This reminded me so much of my Amsterdam trip that I automatically started looking for coffee shops and red light districts. To no avail though. Dublin's still Dublin. As if to further stress this, we meet Viljo on the way home. A very pissed Viljo. How he even managed to cross the street without being run over evades me. We made him walk home with us, in case he'd try his luck with crossing streets again.

"...but it may be pills at work" - Goldfrapp
I feel drugged the way this world seems to spin a little faster now...
15/4/2011

Day six

Four hours 'til breakfast. The dryer in this hostel is crap. There's no other way to put it. Not that I really mind spending the night awake, we'll just see how long I can go without sleep...
First evening in Dublin was fab. First Irish Stew for free dinner, where we finally met Jill, Sandra and Julian. Then we put the clothes in the dryer, went to a pub in the Temple Bar area and were the only ones dancing to the great live music. After we dances into Vera's birthday and stole a martini glass, Veera, Chris and Julian went home, while Vera, Laura, Viljo, Tiia and I wanted to go to another pub/club. We ended up dancing and singing in Dublin's streets without ever making it into another bar. - An evening to be stowed away for bad times, to be drawn on later, when youth has left us.

When we got home our clothes were out of the dryer. And still wet. Which is basically why I am sitting here at 4 am waiting for the third dryer cycle to finish and hoping the clothes will be dry at some point.




14/4/2011

Day five

"Damals malte ich Birken
tagelang
beeindruckt -
ich hab sie angefasst..." - Go Plus

It's like that now. Naturalism.
13/4/2011

We made it to Galway in the end. But not before we crossed the line at Cliffs of Moher. Everybody does it really. And now we know why: the pictures are just so much better! With a slightly ragged breath.
13/4/2011

Today's drive? Great! We didn't get lost in Galway, had Lunch in Mullingar and the somewhere on the N4 we left the rain behind us, topping it all of with arriving in sunny Dublin and finding the hostel and Sixt right away. And now? Now I love them all. Not that I didn't before. But now... it wasn't exactly an odyssey, it was one of these things that you can't do together without bonding or breaking. And I'm on the bonding side.
Jill is somewhere in the city already, being posh and doing something like a spa day.

Galway left me with "The Book of Longing" by Leonard Cohen. A first leafing through tells mee that these texts will come to me much later. They will come. And I will be awaiting them.




13/4/2011

Day four

"Change your heart -
look around you,
change your heart -
it will astound you"

Somehow Bec is the background music of the Irish morning programme on the TV screen in the dining area in Killarney. This simple coincidence seems to question if last night's sleeplessness really was the result of the obnoxiously loud snoring. I don't exaggerate when I say obnoxiously loud! That definitely taught me to bring my earplugs next time I sleep in a hostel...

Still I cannot really complain. Too lovely is the weather, too well are we all getting along.
When we arrived in Killarney yesterday we went to the lake right away. It proved to be a stunning sight, especially with the two rainbows that followed the April shower we walked through.
The destination for today is Galway. Maybe we'll take Jamie with us, who is from New York and quite the spontaneous traveller it seems.
--

I know for a while now that life is this: An adventurous journey undertaken separately... or was that love?
12/4/2011

"There's nowhere I'd rather be..." I don't even have to spell out where that is - every place O go, I'm there.

Today might be the most stressful, but also breathtaking in a good way. We drove along the ring of Dingle stopping hereand there to admire the landscape, take pictures and walk barefoot in the sea. Now we're on the ferry in Tarbert - this proves to be a real road trip complete with searching radio stations, eating at McDonald's, taking small winding roads, getting lost in Tralee... Now off to Cliffs of Moher and then Galways. It's one of these journeys that leave you changed.
12/4/2011

Day three

Ending on a slightly dakr note last night, today seems to be as bright as ever. I can't really believe that I'm in Ireland right now and that I will be in Scotland next week. It seems that while some things are incredibly close, others never really reach me.
Ireland feels a little bit like home, but that might be because I' with the same people all the time. Which is still comfortable and not suffocating. Being around other people constantly somehow means that I don't have to think everything through. So I trade brooding for reading the map and hope it's the sensible thing to do.

Apart from travelling in itself being a thing of wonder, spring is finally working its full magic. 'Til Kristin, Julia and Stephan visited last week I didn't really pay any attention to how different the flora is here compared to Germany. But now every blossom in the trees, every newly disco vered flower gives proof of their observation. The absence of harsh winters allows huge rosebushes, palmtrees and other things I don't even know the names of to grow. It's nice how sometimes the salty breeze and sweet flowery scents mingle. And it reminds me of how Wales doesn't feel like I thought it would most of the time. Not that you can really anticipate that. I know. I'm still on the case of living the dream...
11/4/2011

Day two - Tag zwei

Kilkenny also. Eine Partystadt, wie uns die drei Irinnen gestern sagten. Nur auf zwei Bie gestern noch raus und nun in unserem stickigen Zimmer, ich schon geduscht, die andern teilweise noch schlafend. Ich denke, dass das sehr gut wird, was wir hier machen. Ein Abenteuer beinahe.
Und hier in den Aufzeichnungen wieder Deutsch? Ich weiß auch nicht wie es kommt, aber es wird ab jetzt immer die Sprache des ersten Gedankens genommen. Soweit das möglich ist. Und morgens ist all mein Sein doch sehr deutsch.
Uns erwartet ein Tag in Kilkenny, die Fahrt nach Cork und vermutlich noch mehr Abenteuer.
10/4/2011

And suddenly there's something hurting in your chest and you pray it's not your heart. Because it shouldn't hurt, not like this. There's something far too close.


It feels like today has been lasting weeks and weeks. First we've been around Kilkenny, looking at the chapel and the castle, walking barefoot through the park, just enjoying the sund while Laura was in the castle. After a short trip to SPAR we cooked lunch (a.k.a. Spaghetti+Sauce) in our hostel and then proceeded to drive to Cashel to look at Cashel Rock there. We didn't manage to get out of Kilkenny without getting lost, but eventually we arrived at Cashel and had a guided tour through the castle. The weather was still perfect and when I strolled through the city with Vera and Laura afterwards we even bought some ice cream to make the summer feeling complete.
In the way from Cashel to Cork it became excruciatingly clear that the atmosphere in the respective cars was very different. While Vera, Tiia, Veera and me tried to work as a team and keep the peace - always encouragin, calm and supportive-, Laura felt really stressed by Chris and Viljo, to the point where Laura was really pissed off when we arrived in Cork. So we will switch tomorrow, so that I'm in the car with Laura and Chris and Vera will drive the Finnish car.
Cork has that trademark port-city feeling without lacking the Irish flair. But if anybody says anything again about the Irish being bankrupt - I don't see how?! Everything is so fecking expensive! In comparison Wales seems cheap!
Anyway. Apart from the physical movement, I still try to come to terms with my emotional journey. Not that I can see any change yet. Or feel. If anything things are going downhill. I think I never had that big a crush on someone I know so little about. So I'm telling myself - it can't be my heart, that fluttery lightness in my chest that's almost painful. It can't be my heart. It cannot.
10/4/2011

Day one

When the sky is blue - so blue you can believe this is the first morning ever or in a long time - that is the the morning the world calls for you. Get up quietly, say your prayer, shoulder your bag and join the bird's song in the orchards - don't look back, there's no need; this journey will take you home again. Wherever that may be.

9/4/2011

So we've reached the first destination - Kilkenny. It was very clever of me to forget my driver's license, so now Vera and Laura have to drive all the time... but we made it out of Dublin safe anyway. Somehow. We're all still being friendly with each other, the weather is still nice and we're just about to go out.
9/4/2011

Ireland, Scotland and beyond

"Driving sideways
if you roll down the window you'll see
you're where you don't belong..."

The journey goes on and the set up was this:

Bangor, Kilkenny, Cork, Killarney, Galway, Dublin, Glasgow, Edinburgh. Ambitioned but not megalomaniac.

The following posts are the digitalized version of my travel journal - unabridged.